Just a note

well just a quick note, over the last few weeks i have left post detailing the glamor us side of this cancer, tonight is one of those real bad nights.

i woke up around 1am chocking on the mucus in my throat, at least i did have the good sense not to throw up in my bed, i am sure Sasha and the bug would not have liked that.

as i made my way to the sink holding in the mucus so as not to swallow i started sneezing sprayed that stuff all over the place, after cleaning out my mouth, the cabinets and floor all is good again.

its nights like this that make me feel bad, there is nothing i can really do aside from sitting at the sink spitting for hours on end, kind of makes it hard for sleep.

i now have two large rashes on my body, one appears to be shingles, the other just started appearing on my neck and side are large pustules i am guessing this is the side effect that my chemo doctor will be happy about, takes so little to please him.

this is the down side, the time of the day its hard to keep your head up, because i want to sleep, its not like my back where i can yawn, oh i do not want to yawn, god talk about a killer set of pain, yawning in the worst.

and on top of all this my nasal sinuses are reacting, they are blistering filling up with pus and mucus and i have to shove hot towels up there to clear them out, if i don't i will have a big time issue trying to breath in the radiation machine in a few hours.

well i thought i would relate the bad side, not anything i can do about it, there is nothing i can take for it, its just grin and bear it time.

i am watching movies now, i will keep a light on for you.