Is suicide really painless?

Oh no, i am not planning to off myself, heard the old song tonight and was wondering if its less painful then what i am going through now...I do not know which is worse...

The slow choking i experience when i sleep, it makes the concept of "water boarding" sound delightful, the fact that i have to nibble on cookies, snacks or drink beverages of all kind to wash the terrible taste away, my sleeping habit that would make a torture specialist happy...or..

The fact that i have seen all the old movies on late at night that i am now sitting here watching "Tekwar" starring Greg Evigan, William Shatner and more 80's looking fashions that i would like to gouge my eyes out with a spoon..a Viet Soup spoon at that (picture attached for those that have not seen one)

I think i would almost rather commit suicide by watching Kieth Obermann and Rachel Maddow have consensual liberal sex with condiments...well maybe not that far..i so hate Kieth Obermann....

Have a good night i am going to gather all basic ingredients, build from hand a forge and make a knife to cut my wrist, that last image was to sad even for me to think of...