I stepped across and into it i think

well that title says it all, and come the 1st of December i will just know how deep it is,

well i am just back from my Onocoligist, he was not a very happy man with me, as of this weekend i have pretty much lost my voice, looks like there might be a growth on the vocal cords/ Lyrnax area, he is not exactly sure since he is not the one with the fancy scopes and such, but a quick visual and neck "massage" told him there is something there.

He wanted to send me back over to the ENT this week and have my throat scoped but since i am due for a PET/CT this week why not wait and see what it says? i mean it will show the exact same thing and more, so we are waiting for the results before i get a tube shoved down my messed up sinuses anyways.

I have a new issue that has them a little worried, i had a couple of issues with my cognitive powers the last couple weeks, i waneted the S.O. (Sometimes Other) to change the sheets, but i could not bring the words out, i know what i wanted to say, but i just could not bring the words out, so after a bit of patomime and pointing, she got the idea , so clean sheets it is..

They think that might be the starting signs of it moving into the empty space between my ears, but, as i said i have a scan this week and that should show all.

I think myelf that its starting to come together, i went past the initial 9 months so its all good, i have done well, not as well as i would have if that idiot GP in LBC diagnosed this correctly in the first place, but well.

I am being refered back to Pallative care now and seems in the next few weeks i will be refered to "hospice" care after that, i pity them, i was not a good patient the first time thru.

well i think i will now go down to long beach seaside park and make fun of the "occupy" people, these guys make anarchist look orginized, they could not figure out how to tie a shoelace unless they rejected plans twice and then said "lets wear flip flops"

later all