all i want is to

feel better,

Been tired, i am working, and holding it all together, but i am finding that i am still feeling run down, not sure what that is all about but i am feeling very tired and weak at times, i sleep way more then i use to, which some will say i sleep like a normal person now, and i am still cold, that and i cannot gain weight.

I am still hanging between the 249 to 259 mark, what i would do to get back to a normal weight (for me) and not be judged like you mere mortals, i liked looking like i was a wall, everyone tells me i look great, i would like to feel like i look.

well enough bitching, i guess it could be worse, i could be doing radiation and chemo, so that's a bright side.

I am still on track for the operation on 06/22/2010, should be off work no more then 10 days, but i have learned since this started nothing is carved in stone.

It was also pointed out to me that i will be in the hospital on the one year anniversary of the diagnoses ( i was diagnosed on 06/24/2009) oh yippee !

aside from that all seems to be going well, i spend most of my time running around working and sending messages to my friend Bob, he had shoulder surgery so i keep sending him messages to do jumping jacks and windmills, he keeps sending me messages that usually has impossible anatomical suggestions attached. (HUA for those who don't want to guess)

well i am done cranking for now, have a great night, a good weekend, and keep your head down and ass covered.