well today is closer to the end then i thought it would be, i finished chemo today, no more of that, well till they say i need to go back that is, and after today's radiation treatment i have only 2 more left to go, come Wednesday the 23rd i will be a free man, well free of the radiation machine man.
the effects of the radiation will continue on for about 10 days after i stop, it builds up in your system and then i will slowly start to feel better. i am guessing that around the middle to end of October i should be somewhat near normal, well considering how i am in in life normal is not a word used around me.
I have done a lot of reading in the cancer blogs online, of all the cancers they say this is one of the one's that change you the most, i lived through my mom having cancer since 1970 up until she died a couple years ago, same with my father and i can see it, i saw how they acted and how they behaved and can tell you right now my father would have taken his cancer (cancer of the stomach) over mine, he would have been a raving lunatic.
i am hoping i will get my taste buds back, i did like my food, i am going to be real pissed if all i can taste from now on is "gray, slime"
i am hoping that the wounds on the inside of my mouth heal well, i am hoping that my saliva glands will come back and start working again, i am hoping that i will be able to sleep more then 90 minutes before something flows into my throat and wakes me up choking.
i am hoping that when they do the neck resection they will have no issues, i told them i did not care about the scars, i have a ton of them anyways, they tell part of my story.
but until then i will do what i always do, i just take one step forward, and there are but two treatments left to go.
have a great weekend all, i will be here,
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